M i so weak?

tis is my first blog n also the 1st time i start blogging.. coz there r some things tat i really dunno how to express it out but really wanna say it out... u noe wat i means rt? well its just.. i dunno wat's wif me! do i really like him? sometimes yes but sometimes no.. i dunno tats the right answer! but i dont like tat answer! i tink its juz i too 'sam yun' dy:S like if he do a lil bit or say a lil bit den i wil hav feelings for him agn even thou tat feeling had been long gone! its juz... y is it always like tat?! always repeating! i dun trust him! i noe i dun yet i like him i tink! well... i miss him if i dun c him n wil wait for his call if he promised me to call me.. wil get disappointed if he doesn't call.. well all tis.. ya means i like him rt?! but sometimes i worry when i m on the phone wif him.. coz i m scared tat we suddenly hav no topic or the conversation became weird... gosh! wats wrong wif me! tis guy really always make me wait man! n some more! i dunno how many gals around him! he always like tat.. treats me so good den make me frm zero feelings for him until like him den suddenly when she starts to talk bck to him den he goes to her! wth! wat i m?? i sponge is it??!!! oni without her, he comes to me!!! i noe i noe all along tat i m oni her replacement! so jo!!! wake up!! u MUST BE STRONG!!! omg c la!!! call me dear agn!! den juz now on9 dun even wanna talk to me!!! now call me dear!!! wtf!!!! wahh... i m goin crazy!!! c wat i mean??!! juz one word DEAR!!! den my whole heart like MELTED! den i forget bout all the bad things!!! i m such a wimp!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!