Finally..

today... i finally received an apolody msg from johnny.. actually he sent it laz nite but i din read.. it was quite coincidence tat i read it.. coz i never check my friendster messages one.. juz now i wanted to press freind request den accidentally pressed new message.. anyway, i m not ready to forgive him yet.. i m not acting great or wat so ever... i juz wanna hear his reason 1st... if there is a reason of coz i will listen to it.. but i hope its the REAL reason... not some made-up crap.. anyway.. i m really surprised to receive his msg.. really tot he wil never ever say sry... u can say my feelings is suprised + shocked + delighted + relief.. haihz... pathetic me... :S but no matter wat... after tis incident i hope i really learn a lesson... learn to protect myself from getting heartbroken.. learn to beware of heartbreakers haha... well actually wat i really hope is he can call me n say sry... i noe its hard for a guy to say sry coz they r so so ego! but to me... if i can hear it.. or even better see it... den it is the most sincere... haihz.. guess i shudnt dream so much!!


anyway... work was ok today... i got to leave at 7 today! coz i finish my work early!! but i tink i might wanna quit the job in 2 weeks time... kinda bored wif it dy... haha... well helena treats me very gd... so does all my colleagues... mayb its juz tat i feel its not the right place for me! lol... i m so emo!! well... have to wait for OCBC to call me c when i can get my internship 1st b4 i quit citibank... hope they call me tmr!!!


tis afternoon as usual went to eat lunch wif jia shyuan... today we went kim gary! wah i din noe the price there increased so much!! one cheese baked rice costs rm14.90!!! crazy!! haha... actually today wanted to eat wif khor also coz i fell bad for always treating him so mean.. but i juz cant!! i actually asked him to join us for lunch... i really din expect he stil agrees after me telling him jia shyuan is my bf n ask him to join me n my bf for lunch!! tis guy is really........ but luckily i manage to 'ditch' him by saying jia shyuan's mum eating wif us also haha... den oni he din follow... phew... lol... i m so so mean!!! haihz actually i dun wanna b like tat also... but i scared i give him false hopes... khor... plz dont dont waste time on me anymore... i wil never ever like u... haihz how i wish i can tel him tis driectly... den no need everyday so san fu hav to avoid him.. but sometimes i feel sry for him coz he asks he so many times to lunch i also say excuses n reject... hope he really un lar...


aiyor... 1 somethin dy.. shud b sleepin now... k update tmr if got time!