Haihz....

very long din update my blog dy... coz had been very busy working.. working is so so SIEN!! today.. i really really din wanna go to work at all!! so in the morning bout7.30 when i woke up i really dun wanna go to work at al!! so u noe wat i did.. haha.. i pretended that i had stomachache n din go to work at the end... lol!! i m so naive i know... i juz really need a break!! haha... working is hell boring! my dad totally by it.. haha.. i know my acting skills very gd hehe.. mavis n may told me b4 haha... but i dun simply use acting skills on ppl k! oni when is emergency!! managed to escape work today... but tmr dunno how to face helena.. :( today i called her n tel her i m sick cant go work... she din even say anythin... juz say ah ah ah ok bye... omg!! how??!!!!!!! i tink she really very angry n tink i m so dem lazy n all!!! die lar!! dunno how to face her tmr!!! :( :( :(


haihz u noe.. so many days dy i oso never receive an sms from him... i dunno y i except it... haihz.. he is really someone special to me... haihz... i tink its bcoz tat day i sms him den he say he busy wor.. den sms me later.. but he din.. i shud hav known one... juz tat argh!! dunno y i stil stil wait for his sms... y he wanna say he wil sms me bck!! dun say tat... dun make me wait... n tat day i rmbr when i called him 2 clear things out, he said he wil call me tmr... but he din also!! n i stil waited!! haihz... wait n wait n wait... jo ar jo!!! can u plz wake up?! tat day jia shyuan told me, if someone realy cares bout u, tat person wil never ever hurt u... if someone always makes u sad n makes u hurt n makes u cry, den y do u stil wanna hav hopes n stil wanna wait for tis person to come to u?? i dunno how to answer him... i noe my biggest weakness is tat i oni fall for gd looking guys.. even if tis guy hurt me how many times.. i stil stil in my heart one part of my part stil like him... tats my prob! i wanna let gd looking guys hurt me! y m i like dat?! my cousin told me yesterday.. 'leng zai mou buen sam' she told me leng zai thinks they dem gd so they wont treasure u .. to them even if they lose u, there r so many gals for them out there... u r juz one of the random gals in their life.. wat she sed is true... i noe it is... she ask me to giv chance to other guys dun oni fal for handsome guys.. den u wont get hurt... wil b very hang fuk coz they wil really treasure u n take care of u... i wanna change too!! but its so hard! i juz cant i dunno y!!! haihz... jo plz plz wake up!!! dun wait anymore plz!!! can u plz dun wait anymore!!!!